Totally Bored... Definitely Anxious

         Boredom. once you experience this, you can never get away with it, unless you are creative enough to think of something you will surely enjoy. But when this slowly enters the room of my blissfull day, this could be dangerous. Once I'm bored, I would mumble words like " bored. food. facebook." In other words, " I am BORED. I want FACEBOOK. I need FOOD." And I would ask myself 'what to do' a hundred times. Boredom keeps me thinking of various stuff I don't think during ordinary days. And my defender from boredom is no other than IMAGINATION! When boredom begins the trouble, imagination gets started. And I begin to imagine things like, having a better bedroom room, constructing a dream house in my mind, et cetera-et cetera.


But despite the fact that boredom is one mortal enemy of most people, there is something I thank 'him' for. That is for giving me the alloted time of the nothing-to-do part of the day for me to think deeply about myself, the world I am into and the kind of life I have. When I'm bored, the place I'd love to go is our terrace at home. Fresh air, nice view of the neighborhood, and a clear scenery of the blue sky. I would sometimes caught myself staring at nothing, thinking of who I am... who I really am. How I've been living my life to the fullest and how I can still live it  more than the best. What I have done and can still do to make my grades reach the quota I made for myself. And I often ask myself if I had any regrets in life ( life?! As in 13 years of existence? Definitely yes... a lot!) or to make the span shorter, in my HS life. There are so many questions in my mind! If someone would see me so quiet, with nothing to do and keep on staring at the invisible wind, one would think that I am so bored. Yes. I'm physically, plainly dull but secretly busy thinking and asking questions in mind. Questions that are almost impossible to unlock or some, heaven only knows.


Silence. One that rules me sometimes (usually when I'm bored). I get to think how blessed I am compared to other children. I get to study in a  way different school where education is not the only priority but also character formation and social responsibility. I eat hearty meals thrice a day and have snacks in between. I have a family, a home as shelter and friends to count on when I am in need. I am gifted with skills and talents that could help me a lot. And above all, I am able to live my life with full determination and I get to do things with less frustration. And that's what makes me happy and contented all the way.


So if I were you, I would not let boredom result to nothing. I'd rather do the act-in-disguise which is THINK. And after thinking, THANK. Be thankful of the things you have in life. Who knows, material or not, God may take them from you. And remember, don't get boredom rule your day.