Last Minute Agony Before Turning 14

Yesterday, I was thirteen, now I turned fourteen. Today is the 26th day of June and it is written on my birth certificate. Usually, there is nothing so big deal when it is the day before my birthday, but yesterday was really something. Aside from having a pre-celebration together with my family, I also experienced a last minute pain. We were at the Jaro Cathedral to attend the anticipated Saturday Mass. The last time I entered the cathedral was last year's Centennial Celebration, so when I went inside, I was, as usual, amazed by its beauty especially the statues of various male saints and the paintings at the ceiling. And every time I enter the place, everything seems so solemn. There I predicted that even though I am not with my friends in any of my birthday celebration, this day will be unforgettable.

            The Mass has started and we were already singing the Gloria when I saw a white thing moving on the floor beside the pew where we were seated. The people near that side looked at the white thing. I was curious so I also gazed. There I found out that it was not a "moving thing" but a lame boy. I bet he was near my age or even more. He went forward and approached a woman, asking for alms. He stretched out his hand with a slipper. Yes, a slipper. Instead of his feet wearing a pair of slippers, his hands were the ones using them. Luckily, the woman gave him a penny of an amount which I don't know. Then he went back to the side of our pew and asked the old-aged couple for any amount of money. Again, he was given. At that time I was thinking that he will soon come to me for I was just a few centimeters away from the couple ( actually my sister was nearer to them ). As expected, he came to me crawling. I wasn't surprised, but terrified, like the last time I entered that place, when there was a girl also came to us. He stretched his hand to me, yet I looked straight at the altar. I can say some people at my back saw him and what I did. Then my mom poked my dad telling to give the boy money. My dad immediately gave a five-peso coin. Then, that was the time I looked at him. He balanced the coin on the slipper and used his other hand to get it and placed it inside his pocket. I looked at his eyes. After that, I refused to look straight at him again. In his eyes I saw the pain and the burden he has been experiencing. Those pitiful eyes touched me. If only I brought with me my coins, I would never ever hesitate to give him some. There, I caught myself not concentrating to the Mass.

            After receiving the coin, I thought he will leave and proceed to other Mass-goers. But no. He didn't. The old woman tapped his shoulder and whispered something to him. Of course I didn't hear a thing, but I can infer that the woman told him to stop going around and stay in one place for awhile. That is because that boy sat at the side of the pew in front of us. And that disturbed me more from listening to the readings. He has a wound near his left eye because he has a makeshift bandage using a white cloth. His feet were like of the Chinese women having lotus feet. They were small and I am sure they had stopped growing. My sister told me that there's a term for the act of the 'sindikato' making the feet of the children turn like the ones of the boy. The priest who I knew and met a year ago was having his homily already when I saw the boy gazing from side to side. He looked at one of the flat screens hung on the pillars of the cathedral. He was resting for a while when he decided to leave. I did not see him after he left. I thought he will come back, but he didn't. The Mass has ended and so we went out. I looked around and saw no sign of him. There were no more beggars outside. Perhaps because it was already past six. I was really eager to know where he went. Maybe he has some friends with him and they searched for shelter. Or maybe he has a family. Or maybe... I hope not... he went to the 'sindikato' to give the money he earned from begging. I hope he didn't. And I hope what my sister said about those 'sindikato' is not true at all. We already reached home after eating in a restaurant, yet his eyes kept on flashing back in my mind. Those pitiful eyes.

            My last day being a thirteen year old girl has left a memory in me. And I am sure that this will not just vanish in my mind nor in my heart right away. The, in fact, will leave a scar in my heart. It was just an instant where my eyes meet the ones of a poor boy, probably of my age. That was all. An instance common to all. An instance where one ignores a hand of the poor. " Love the least, the last, and the lost," that's what Fr. Nathaniel ( the celebrant) mentioned in his homily. Now, I always think of him... of his condition and his future. I hope to see him again the next time I go to the Cathedral. And I hope to see him better than yesterday.

Be Like Water If You Must

What are you staring at?

Those teary eyes... they are shameful.

Don't you dare show them how weak you are, you're strong...

You should be.

Don't bow your head down... be tough!

Don't let them know you are close to giving up.

Never show them you are grieving when you know you can still stand.

When you fall, don't stay long being low... rise!

When you have a wound,

Don't expect it to totally vanish away... it will always leave a scar in you...

In your heart.

Do your best... your all.

Let sincerity conquer you.

Let courage dominate you.

Be simple in anything you do.

Keep still in a while... don't rush things,

For they have their own time of arrival.

Be like water... which goes with the flow of everything... of life.

Be like water... which peace is visible in one's personality.

Be like water... which do things selflessly.

Be like water... and eternal joy will be yours.

A Walk To Remember

         
              Rocky road, hilly paths, dark caves, eery sounds, tiring journey. That's what one freshman can say after a long trip to Bulabog Putian National Park, Dingle. I am no longer a freshman, though I still want to. But, what made me post another blog is because I was totally bored so I scanned through my files in our laptop. Yes, I found these pics in one of my folders. Okay, going back to the main topic. the field trip was indeed exhausting. My joints were like giving up and my bones were sort of breaking down. A lot of us were compllaining while in the middle of the walk. After entering three dark caves, each one grabbed her own seat and immediately took out her lunch. We were all starving to the max! I really can't tell exactly, but I think we've walked around two to three kilometers or maybe more than that. But, out of the flat-floor-longing sessions we had, we still enjoyed, I know we did. After having our lunch, we (some of my friends and I) played this "Truth Or Dare" game with a twist ( one that, I believe, is funnier and more enjoying than that of the original). 


And ofcourse, as usual, upon reaching the bus, everybody (most) slept. Well, I am not one of them. I was noisy at first. But when I found out that my partner beside fell asleep, my co-noise makers also fell asleep, and the rest were doing their own businesses, I started to calm down ( I just calmed down, not slept) and ate my extra snacks. And then, there I found out that my tennis shoe got broken.

Now, are you wondering why I entitled this blog post, "A Walk To Remember"? It is because as I was walking to and fro, I felt that everything was a dream. I can't believe that I have reached the place. In fact, I don't even know why I can't believe that that was happening. The ground looked so rocky but with green weeds thingy as if there used to be water flowing down the pathway. The temperature there was different compared to the city. My classmates looked different, they acted different to me. I am sure that they didn't know what I was feeling because I didn't bother to tell them about it. Until now, I felt like it was a dream. 


Thus I call it a walk to remember, an experience never to forget, a story that I should tell to any whose interested. And I believe that the students who will soon visit the place will suely enjoy it there.

I Miss All The Fun with MIchaelites

Hopefully this will happen again....

The Man Whose Love Reached Every Filipino -reaction statement to the article, time to relearn what Rizal stood for

        
      JOSE RIZAL- chess player, propagandist, nationalist, communicator, novelist, fencer, sharp shooter, researcher, artist, sociologist, opthamologist, botanist, businessman, musician, poet, farmer, actor, traveller, historian, anthropologist, ethmologist, educator, hero


" ...love of country is never effaced once it has penetrated the heart, because it carries with it a divine stamp which renders it eternal and imperishable... Of all loves, that of country is the greatest, the most heroic, and the most disinterested"- Rizal


He carries a big name, famous all over the earth. A name that brings a title wherever it goes. He is one of the greatest heroes ever known. To us, Filipinos, he is a gift. The man who made the indios raise their bolos to the air; who awakened the hearts of every Juan dela Cruz; who fought for freedom because of his love for his country. He is, by far, the man who has proven his patriotism until his last words, his last breath. For the country, he faced death. 


Now, we are the ones enjoying the fruits of his labor, his sacrifices. He has given us what our ancestors longed for. He is the reason behind our celebration of Phiippine Independence Day, our freedom. He is our inspiration. our model in loving our own country; to be like him in our own little ways. To open our hearts for another kind of love- PATRIOTISM- that is. 


" You wish to love but find no one worthy, look to your country, love her!" -Jose Rizal

As The Day Sets ( A longing for those days to come again)

I used to be with my friends,
Lying on the grassy field,
Telling stories each one,
Sharing secrets and having fun.
Our faces perspiring
While playing games and enjoying
the moments as the day sets.


I used to be at the swing,
Pushing a friend into the air,
With our shoes off and socks soiled.
Running around so time not to be spoiled
With smiles on our faces,
And so the pain in me eases.
While sitting on the field,
As the day sets.


Now, I am sitting, not on the field
With my eyes on those seated 
on the spot where we used to be
No more stories to share,
Nor secrets to tell.
No more smiles to see,
Nor friends to be with.
No more joy to feel,
Nor a touch of ease.


I wish for those days to come again,
Liven me up in this dark world of longing
For time to bring back those days
Where I used to be on the field
With my friends,
smiling as the day ends.

The City on Peaks

        When someone tells you, " we are going to a place on top of a mountain", you would think of a town or an eco park. And a city will never come to your mind. But what about Baguio? This is so far the most well-known city lying on the mountains of Central Luzon. I don't have any idea how that city reahed the mounatains, maybe because it was first a town, then it reached the population good enough to be city. I really don't know. Whatever its origin is, the thing is, we were able to visit the place.


Okay, to start. When we got off the bus, I felt the cold breeze touching my skin tissues, so I took my jacket and wore it. We took two taxis because we were seven in totality ( sister, mother, and me, plus four ilonggos who will also be attending the same conference my mom will). Upon reaching, the rest house where we will be staying for four days, I immediately checked the two rooms. i was disappoointed when seeing not a single air condition. I mean, it is a rest house, how come there's not a single aircon?


So off, we went to Mines View Park, took a picture of the scenery, bought souvenirs and all, ate at Chowking and went back to the rest house. Okay, this time, I was feeling really, really cold. I don't even want to take a half bath. I was so sorry for under estimating the owner of the rest house for failing to meet the expectations of the customer just because of having no aircon. I am so dumb. I think I was totally out of my mind that I forgot that we are in Baguio, the Summer Capital of the country because of its cool temperature even during summer. Allow me repeat that, COOL temperature. I take back all my complains earlier... my fault.


As a whole, I enjoyed my stay in Baguio. They had a cheaper flagdown on taxi cabs (25 pesos) compared to Iloilo (40 pesos!!!), stoplights in almost every intersection of roads ( I see nothing here in Iloilo, most are... broken, aren't they?) and for some reasons, I find it safer there. I don't have to take to emphasis everything that happened there. The usual thing, of course, Burnham Park with the boating thingy, Mines View Park, Botanical Garden, et cetera- et cetera. Important thing is , I like it there. I enjoyed my stay in the city on peaks- BAGUIO.

Not Ready for Stress

NOTE: Before scrolling this web page down, remember that this post is not to scare ongoing sophomores, incoming sophomores and soon to be HS students of AC. These are just my opinions and insights of what second year (or even HS years)  really is. DON'T GET INFLUENCED.

After two months of summer vacation, here I am, doing school works once again. It's pretty wierd that few weeks before school time, I felt no excitement at all, though I already had my books, notebooks, and all. Well, there was slight of excitement, not to study and do assignments but to see my friends again ( I missed them so much). For the many years I've been studying here in AC ( eight years, to be exact) it is the first time that I felt like not going to school. Even though I have been experiencing boredom most of my summer days, I still prefer staying at home. It is because I tried to list all the school activities this school year for the sophomores. And guess what I found out.


- Medicine Drive
- Food Sale
- Play Festival w/ modifications ( ! )
- Cheerdance Competition ( ! )
- Intramural 2012
- Integration ( event with investigatory projects again)
- NAT ( ! )


Oh, dude, seriously! I mean, we had some of these in the previous year, but, hello, AC goes coed! 

Well, for some students, these are all fun. Yes, they are. But before having fun, one has to undergo stress and sacrifice. Let me repeat that, stress and sacrifice.


So, what I can say is, WOAH! That's all. They are not new to me... thanks to my sister. But still, I can't stop thinking how to make these activities a success. Some events happen anually ( such as Med. Drive, Intrams and Integration) but some, not for all ( like the NAT, food sale and PlayFest). The big thing here is the Play Festival WITH SOME MODIFICATIONS. Yes, with some modifications. And also the NAT ( National Achievement Test) which stressed me when I was in grade 6, and will surely pressure me again this coming February or March. 


But then again, I got no choice but to be here. I am in school, forcing myself to love what I am doing because I am a learner, and nobody can ever change that. Ofcourse as usual, new cassmates, teachers and classroom. I can say I am totally not ready for stress. As in TOTALLY... SERIOUSLY. But that's what I am doing. I can't imagine myself having eyebugs again ( but I think I have). I am not ready to stay late at night preparing for class presentations and all. But what can I do? Nothing, right? I just have to got with the flow. Someday... hopefully someday... I'll get used to this... get used to stress.

No Collissions Allowed

           This was one of the many statements Mr. Guintivano when he introduced relaxation treatment to us sophomores during our second meeting. Yet it did not stop there. Just this morning during our leadership training at the HS AVR, he (Mr. Guintivano) also let us did this but now, with the different class officers of ther year levels and the CAT officers. I was struck by this activity. That I was such a fool while joining my classmates in clapping their hands as sign of the collissions of the balls that we rolled. I was so displeased when the balls collide for these are the sings of our mistakes as a class. But still it was striking when I did it again with a different group of people. I did not expect the activity to last that longer. When we had it as class, we repeated at least three times. But a while ago, we did the same thing for more than five times. It was sort of a dream,a de cha vou. What made it different is that I can see different faces planning out a strategy. Most of us in the group were worrried of the mistakes we might make. On our first try, we made seven mistakes or collissions. On our second, we made one. Still most of us were not contented with our performace so we did it again. This time... what do you think? No more collisions? Well, we made about four collisions. But in every mistake, we all stopped and altogether, clapped our hands as a sign of acceptance of our mistakes.

            Bottomline, according to Manang Reign, no matter how we make things perfect and without errors, still the same thing happens. No matter how hard we try to resist even a single mistake, we cannot do it because mistakes are part of our 

L.E.A.D.E.R.

           This morning, I attended the leadership training... one seminar I will always remember... one that I did not regret attending. Hon. Jamora was one resource speaker who shared to us more about leadership and effective ways of leading a group. He shared an acronym of "leader" to us.

           

            Listen

            Enthustic

            Alert

            Discipline

            Effective

            Responsible

           

            A leader must be a listener to his/her followers or members. He/She must be enthusiastic in everything he/she does. In every activity, he/she must be alert. Being a good leader starts with oneself... self-discipline. A leader must be effective in encouraging his/her members in doing things with unity and cooperation. A leader should be responsible at all times especially when it comes to time-management in order to do his/her duties and meet their deadlines. The word "leader" cannot be formed when one of these is missing. It is a stall that cannot stand with one leg lacking. So, you cannot say that you are a leader without learning how to listen.

            Another statement from Hon. Jamora: "It is passion that can overcome desire". When you are passionate in doing your duties as a leader, you will not have the desire to be rewarded or recognized. Being a leader is selflessly giving your time, talent and resources for the good of others.

"Remember me" -Freshman Days

            They say one's high school life is the most enjoyable and exciting part. When I heard this I was like, thinking of my first year in HS. Everytime I hear the word, " high school" what often comes to my mind is first year HS. I experienced heavenly days, saw people with smiling faces, did things that cannot be replaced by any, kept memories that will always and forever be in my heart. Everytime I remember those days, I can't stop myself from laughing (if funny) or shed a tear ( if I long for them to happen). Being a student of a one extraordinary teacher, and a classmate of thirty-three funny people, it is very hard to accept the fact that we are now separated. So many memorable and worth-cherishing moments happened last school year that don't happen all the time. Like the return of one graduate of grade school in AC,and the centennial celebration of Assumption. One might call me a 'senti' . I admit, I am one. I would seek for something significant in any event that I find so special. But I accept this personality of mine, except the part where I become teary-eyed because I miss those days.

            Until now, I would still recall those moments. At night, I sometimes stare at the star-filled sky and keep on wishing for a miracle that time will come we, the Michaelites, can be in the HS field and play games we would play before. Laugh at me if you want. But this is who I am... This is what we are- the Michaelites.